Momentum
Do you believe in that there are good times and bad times, that sometimes things just fall into place and sometimes they unravel uncontrollably into a whole lot of mess and above all that there is a certain momentum to victory and to defeat too.
The past six months have been very hectic for me but i had the most troubling time in the past two months. I have been searching for summer internship. Being an international student in a US MBA program, there are only a few companies that are willing to offer you the job and this is mainly due to problems associated with work authorization. So i gave a couple of interviews on the b-school campus in November and December and got rejected on both the occasions. The mistake was mine. In one case i made a grave mistake of not faking enthusiasm for the job(i was interviewing because this was supposed to be my safety job, my fall back option) and in the other case i was not really prepared. I babbled on in response to questions and simply messed the whole thing up. Soon the winter break began and tension mounted, i began applying frantically to very many companies through their websites but no use, no response from anyone. As the b-school reopened i began applying through campus career services again. For almost a month nothing happened, no interview calls nothing. I was losing my interest in studies, food had lost it’s taste and sleep no longer felt soothing. I seem to have forgotten the simple pleasures of life. The cold mid-west weather did not help things.
Unexpectedly, very close to the end of January i received an email from my college professor regarding a research position in the college, asking me whether i was still interested in the position and if i was, then it was mine. This was the turning point. I took the research position. I then got a call to interview in the company that i can simply call my dream company. I gave 4 consecutive interviews for my dream company on a single day and i got the summer internship with a nice little joining bonus and a sweet pay. I also interviewed in the same week for another company, and this interview also went very well, i was well prepared for it and i was confident that it would go well, not because i was well prepared but because other things were going well. That certain momentum that i spoke about earlier.
I have observed throughout my small life that i have always had these dry and wet spells, when i feel trapped in a dungeon and everything i do only, leads me only deeper into the dungeon and then out of nowhere a thin ray of light appears and i climb up this rope into the light.
P.S. I heard back from the other company i interviewed with and now i am facing the problem of plenty and it is still not a bed of roses.
